Isolation makes for a comfortable life

Since finishing school last november i've reclined into a very comfortable bubble in which minimal people are allowed. The process to be accepted is a long and tedious one, only few survive.

See at school i had to be nice because i was a prefect and scowling prefects are often frowned upon, although i often did alot of disliking as it was. I just have a hard time believing that people arent befriending you to use you.

So currently in the bubble is my best friend Kelsey, boyfriend Josh, good friends amelia x 2, church people (most but not all), film school peers and mine and josh's family.

Minimal, as i said, but its all i really need.

I've heard too many times people whinging about their friends and how untrustworthy they are or how much they drink or use them. My solution is the bubble. Less feelings are hurt, less is expected and more time for those who really matter.

motivation: boo ha ha!

I feel like my whole week was a lesson on motivation really. First a very unpleasant weight gain after my first month at the gym or excersize for that matter for a longggggg time, I kicked into weight loss shark bait boo ha ha! You know, from finding nemo? Any way the diet is going well... Interestingly. I think I've been on a sugar high for 3 years and am now only coming down from it. Yeah, ouch. Second motivation moment, we are learning about script writing in class right now and about the goal that a character needs all the way through a story. Kinda true really, I need a motivation all the time. Im the crazy organizer lady at events that flap, but I love it. Gets me on a high really. So motivated I will be! And I'll need it seeing as Easter starts tomorrow and the temptation will have the upper hand in the form if chocolate.

Morning

From Monday to Wednesday i go to film collage, (For now it's bugging me so it doesn't get a post just yet). The nearest train station is about 10 minutes away and so mum and i go together in the mornings. She starts a little earlier than me so i go over the other side of the station and make my little nest outside a coffee shop with an overpriced apple juice to keep me going. Sometimes i crochet or read or do work but most of the time i don't get much of this done because the world around me is the most fascinating.

Every type of person seems to gather at sutherland in the mornings, school kids, older ladies in their gym t-shirts, the dry-cleaning man (who mum has somehow managed to make me get to know very well), uni students, but the biggest number are business people.

You can always tell apart from everyone else, they look late, constantly, but they aren't. they are just driven. The men wear backpacks and the woman wear their bags close to their bodies. Depending on age they have earphones which are surprisingly loud. Sometimes they run, not all that often, but they are a good indication a train is leaving. They wear their comfortable shoes with their fancy ones in their bag, much more efficient for the running that way. Tclothes, all in different range of fashionability.

I dont know what it is but they fascinate me. I think its the independence, not that im sure they are all able to look after themselves, but they have a mission and are working to make it happen, alone. I guess its a sign of maturity, entertaining yourself and managing time efficiently. I find my morning commute very peaceful, train for 40 minutes, walk then bus for 10 more. Business people always have a book or music or their phone or emails, im never sure how relaxed they really are.

Although this all sounds tiring, and im sure by the end of the day they want to torture their backpacks and burn their suits, im excited to join their world soon.

A year from now i will have joined their ranks, grabbing full time employment by the horns, giving them a what for! (not really, i'll be the coffee girl).

It'll be a challenge but worth it.